李鉴祐

.18.

2009-06-17T19:17:00.000-07:00

Happy 18 months, baby. :) that's 1.5 years - just you and me.

It's been pretty fun for us so far - and even though sometimes I know it takes superhuman strength to fight the urge to not want to strangle me, I hope the times when u fight the urge NOT to hug me and say you love me out loud trumps that.

I'm sure as hell going to miss you next semester. -sniff-

on a similar note,

Disclaimer: this is not in any way implying any relationship dictator. But if u read that somehow, you might not be wrong. :)

Love

.love.

2009-04-24T04:08:00.000-07:00

"i know everybody says it...but my cup is genuinely superior than the others." =)

-lu

.hehe.

2009-03-21T09:31:00.000-07:00

why do fat stick people have skinny legs and arms?

-lu

.thought.

2009-03-07T03:58:00.001-08:00

I don't like cliches

but i think we were made

for each other

let that be enough

-lu

Favourite Boy.

2009-02-05T19:32:00.000-08:00

((:

- Aims

work stuff

2009-02-04T22:33:00.000-08:00

2009-02-04T02:33:00.000-08:00

Dreidel, dreidel, dreidel.

2009-01-01T09:02:00.000-08:00

I can't find the Hanukkah song on Southpark. In the meantime, there's this -

There you go! (:

- Aims

2008-12-29T07:48:00.000-08:00

yes i miss him sometimes too

-lu

.lookie what i found.

2008-11-21T22:16:00.000-08:00

hahahahahahaahahahahaahahahahahahahaa.

2008-11-18T04:57:00.000-08:00

why hello there pretty one...

.detached.

2008-10-29T03:42:00.003-07:00

Sometimes I feel like you all don't understand,

but hey, maybe i'm just weird.

And it's not like anyone really cares anyway.

-lu

Re: wants

2008-10-26T15:43:00.000-07:00

>>w.r.t. the last post,

Cowboys 13-9 Buccaneers
Liverpool 1 - 0 Chelsea
Talked to Aims yesterday. =)

Now, Hami just has to complete the job. =)

.wishlist.

2008-10-25T15:11:00.000-07:00

i always wanted to do a list of things that I hope will happen; so let's try this shall, we?

I want Hamilton to win next week's GP (just because.)
I want Liverpool to win tmrw's match again Chelsea
I want the Cowboys to put Romo back on tmr so that they can kick the Bucaneers' asses tmrw and get out of their losing rut (seriously, even their own website says it must end)
I want to be able to talk tonight, or any night, with my baby for a long time...just so i can hear her voice
I wanna go home to you

...how possible will it be that I'll get 5/5? =)

-lu

.earth.

2008-10-23T22:37:00.000-07:00

"We didn't inherit this planet from our ancestors.

We merely borrowed it from our children."

-lu

.empty.

2008-10-21T06:13:00.000-07:00

the one thing worst than not being there is to make an empty promise.

- friendships always change. inevitably. i'm sick of always being on the short end.
-lu

.timon.

2008-10-20T04:47:00.000-07:00

are you achin' (yup yup yup)

for some bacon (yup yup yup)

...and since we're on the topic of my favourite cartoon..

i miss you.

-lu

.10.

2008-10-17T20:20:00.000-07:00

i don't watch Grey's (yes, shuttup.) but this video, cheesy as it may be, somehow says what I want to say to you. And even though we may be far from even considering matrimony, i think this Preston guy is onto something here -

"i promise you, me."

-lu

.to a dear friend.

2008-08-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

I don't believe it would ever happen - and i'm sorry it did. and i know that my words echo like empty shells because there's nothing else I can do;

but tonight, and till everything gets better again, i'll keep you in my prayers.

-lu

"impossible is nothing"

2008-08-14T07:02:00.001-07:00

probably the best commercial ever.

-lu

Webcam 101.

2008-08-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

Peek-a-boo!

Oh there you are!

Hahaha.
Oh, the tiniest things amuse me to no end.

- Aims

This Modern Love.

2008-08-02T04:35:00.000-07:00

It's pretty amazing if, at this point in the relationship, I can still wake up in the morning and be happy that the person I'm missing is missing me too.

Don't get offended
If I seem absent minded
I get tongue-tied
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've never known what's good for me

Day 6, I cried. It still isn't easy.

- Aims

back

2008-07-30T17:10:00.000-07:00

...lu misses the gf plenty. so here's a sappy photo.

okay lah not sappy. just quite funny. heh.

-lu

.SISTER.

2008-07-28T06:00:00.000-07:00

loves and misses her warped xifu

and his shaky-hands-h****-girlfriend

Hiatus

2008-07-04T02:23:00.000-07:00

After a two month hiatus, I decided to take action and do a post for my boyfriend. Let's put this girlfriend in Lionel's shoes, shall we?

"So, I've been home two weeks and a day. Haven't done much except spending time with the family (I love my family), my three dogs and new fishes in my new pond! :D And early this week, I had four of my wisdom teeth extracted and that hurt like a bitch. Like, omg! Nothing much to update, and that's why my blog is dead :(

Oh yes, and I love my girlfriend many many."

Eesh...don't sound very manly at all. :(( I make my boyfriend sound like a bimbo. Hahahahaha.

...and you all know who Dumber is!

Ok, wait...you might not, so I'll tell you - it's Lionel Lee of course! [Hello boyfriend! -spastic wave-]

- Aims

.here's to you, kid.

2008-05-02T04:16:00.000-07:00

maybe its really you and me, huh?

-lu

2008-04-24T21:48:00.001-07:00

-lu

.say of the day.

2008-04-24T17:03:00.000-07:00

"We have bigger houses but smaller families:
We have more degrees but less sense;
more knowledge but less judgements;
more experts but more problems;
more medicines, but less healthiness.

We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but we have trouble crossing the street
to meet the new neighbour.

We build more computers
to hold more information,
to produce more copies than ever,
but we have less communication.

We have become long on quantity
but short on quality.
These are times of fast foods,
but slow digestion;
tall man, but short character;
steep profits, but shallow relationships.

It is time when there is much in the window, but nothing in the room."

-Dalai Lama

dare you dissent?

-lu

2008-04-20T18:11:00.000-07:00

There was a snapshot on the news of one of the funerals for the six kids and teacher who drowned in the NZ tragedy earlier this week. In this one, Floyd Fernandas, 16, is given his eulogy by his father -

"I will miss you nudging me in the stomach telling me I have grown fat. I will miss your talks and laughter and the music played in the house. I will miss you calling me chicken. I will miss you.

I have lost a companion and a friend."

It's sometimes the simplest things that people say that can cause that lump in your throat.

-lu

2008-04-20T15:37:00.000-07:00

New York, Paris, Edinburgh, Traflagar Square.. now Melbourne's having one of its own too! haha.

-lu

.4 & a day.

2008-04-19T22:51:00.000-07:00

yah i miss you

.nomos.

2008-04-15T16:27:00.000-07:00

I swear..legal theory was put on this Earth as a way of spinning the law student around and asking him to walk in a straight line, whereby even then the straight line is never that clear. Anyhow, came across this line (haha so many 'lines') by Foucault :

'Discourse is not life: its time is not your time; in it, you will not be reconciled to death; you may have killed God beneath the weight of all that you have said; but don't imagine that, with all that you are saying, you will make a man that will live longer than he.'
- Foucault, M. (1972). The Archaeology of Knowledge.

-lu

.stuck on you.

2008-04-10T23:32:00.000-07:00

for you, baby.

-lu

.5 years.

2008-04-10T04:22:00.000-07:00

"if peace had to be fought to achieve,

then what good is it -

in the first place."

...read this on Sera's blog and it made sense. don't fight it, and don't reason with it. with every loss the world loses one more in the fight for peace; and even if at the end of the day we do get that peace we searched so long for, will it all that come to naught?

if anything, this makes more sense.

"The 2000 service members killed in Iraq supporting Operation Iraqi Freedom is not a milestone. It is an artificial mark on the wall set by individuals or groups with specific agendas and ulterior motives" (2005)

Had a talk with dad the other day and he mentioned about how some people don't understand the cynicism and 'realities' of this world and start to lose touch with it; thus labelled 'crazy'.

maybe i'm losing touch with this world, 'cause i can't piece death with victory.

-lu

.rings.

2008-04-07T17:00:00.000-07:00

...i know how the whole anti-China/pro-Tibet thing has been going on for awhile, but watching the protests in England and then France on the news yesterday kinda does make one wonder - is preventing the torch from being extinguished the main issue here?

Coz i think, traditions aside, the real issue is how ridiculous it looks with the torchbearer smiling and running amidst a crowd of 20 Chinese and local escorts around her. I mean, fod God's sake, its supposed to be a symbol of sportsmanship, unity, freedom and wadeva not. if anything, its a hunorous metaphor of the way the Olympics will be held this year. A farce of peaceful games and smiling faces among the crowd of security and police forces surrounding it, preventing any attempts to disrupt.

We thought Munich in '86 was bad. I don't know. You wanna talk about the true spirit of the Olympics? If you ask me, Beijing '08 really does not cut it. At all.

-lu

.flashback.

2008-04-05T03:36:00.000-07:00

i was taking a break from obligations readings and decided to go to (heh) sleeping_shadow, just to see if i found anything interesting. turns out so many things made me smile, i decided to do a quick collage of everything that caught my eye. =)

so let's see..we'll start from..October 2006, darling?

08-Sep-06 (6.49pm)
"...it's really great, what i felt, hearing you tell me what you did this morning. but it also saddens me because it proved my point that we will never be. it was always one characteristic short, 10minutes too late, 5 minutes too early, an entire ocean away...."

10-Sep-06 (9.08am)
"...and every little thing you say means so much more,
simply because it's you.

...you just keep coming back to mind.

and for me, you too."

11-Sep-06 (11:54am)
"...and i try to find a piece of you in every guy i meet. "

5 Oct 2006 (3.57pm)
"This chair!! THIS chair!!"

22 Nov 2006 (3.58pm)
"I'm not talking to someone right now.
And I wish like hell we're not at it again.

Sometimes I don't know if it's good or bad; or whether I'll always have that part of you with me.
And it scares the hell out of me because then we will have to be cold for as long as I have to be"

26 Nov 2006 (8.36pm)
"I knew the anonymous tag was you.

I don't know what else to say but I'm glad we talked last night."

20 Dec 2006 (6.58pm)
"Well, over two drinks each, we had the best in-person conversation in ages. It was just very honest. Most of you know Lionel-Aimee-Friendship is so on-off that even if we have known each other for four years, we might as well have only met last year. Much of the conversation helped me understand some things, helped me realize other things, and it helped me know you better.

As a person, you are more than alright, Mister Lee. I thought about a lot of things tonight. Of old times, of times forgotten, of times ahead. After all our ups and downs, I think the fact that we're better friends now than ever means something. I know in some way you'll always be there for me, and I'll be there for you the best way I can."

20 Dec 2006 (8.30pm)
"When I hug some of the people in my life, it comes from the heart. It will be tight, firm and it will feel like I haven’t seen them for ages or will not be seeing them for a long time. It might feel like the last hug I believe I could ever give you.

When it comes to you, most times, this is true – especially the part about the last hug. When I hug you, I mean it. And maybe, you felt it."

20 Feb 07 (1.02am)
"The sound of gushing water, the blue of the swimming pool, the tightness in your chest...

I felt peaceful, and I felt close to you. "

05 Apr 08 (10:01pm) - aglio-olio.blogspot.com
...i guess reading all that made me realise you could easily've been someone else's. And i guess it scared me more than i realised. i got so many things i still wanna tell you, wanna tok with you about, wanna do with you, and wanna share with you. and i guess i'm afraid if you go, i'll never get to do them. maybe ever. -muck-

i miss you.

-lu

.random post for April.

2008-03-31T16:37:00.001-07:00

...so yesterday over soya sauce chicken rice, my very-interesting conversation with yj got cut by a vibration in my pocket.

[private number]

"hello lu dad here. I'm coming down from perth.."

"mm-hmm..friday night, right?"

"nono. tomorrow."

"(cough) tomorrow?? what time?"

...apparently dad found Perth too boring so he's hauling a*s out from there. so week's plans are scuttled, and red carpet's out.

coz Dad's in the house. soon.

-lu

.asxl.

2008-03-22T18:31:00.000-07:00

I know its w&g. but i heard the song and thought of you...so this is for you:

Think of me babe whenever
Some sweet talking guy comes along
singing his song
Don't mess around, You gotta be strong
Just Stop [stop],
'cause I really love You
Stop [stop], I'll be thinking of you

-lu

.there's nothing real about reality.

2008-03-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

maybe its just my strong abhorrence for reality shows, but i think their cruel and distasteful. and watching the bachelor tonight was (besides a bad choice) a reminder of how commercialisation has taken over what this world really needs. i just don't see how one can even fathom the idea of parading girls infront of nations while they get their hearts taken, toyed with, den broken. And the strength these girls have in them - admirable.

but i realised one thing tonight - i miss you. you seemed really busy over the fone and i guess u din get how affected i was over the stupid show. but i really don't want to face the day when you open the door to tell me i'm not the one for u.

coz every day with you as my gf...amazing.

-lu

.and then it was 3.

2008-03-17T05:37:00.000-07:00

i'll always remember the week before Christmas, in the car at 2am. Talking about everything, about why we waited so long, and what the next months would bring. And i still say we're going to do just fine, aimee sin. You, me. -muck-

-lu

2008-03-15T17:26:00.000-07:00

i know its not easy, girl.

but just hold on;

coz we'll be fine -

as long as you believe in it.

-lu

54 days

2008-03-14T22:12:00.000-07:00

never really was a big fan of janet jackson but this video caught my eye in the gym,. no prizes for guessing why. haha.

**but she's still not half as hot as a certain girl back home**

-lu

.t.

2008-03-08T22:42:00.000-08:00

so today we went back to city church along with ann's mummy after like a 4-mth hiatus (which would explain why we didn't know service had been brought forward 45 mins earlier). Service was, as usual, moving. It really felt good to be back in there coz it always feels like i'm coming back home; and regardless of wad people say about the charismatic genre, my faith grows in it so that's good enough for me. Plus it makes me feel like wadeva the week throws my way, i'm always watched upon and blessed.

Did a quick prayer from the family, aims & her family, and for everyone who needed it.

and to you: i think the days pass so quickly; and sumtimes we should learn to slow down the wait. Just take the time to immerse yourself in the anticipation. Afterall, its a steam train rolling towards an inevitable day, so might as well enjoy the scenery while you're on it. =)

-lu

.Saturday.

2008-03-07T15:12:00.000-08:00

had a weird dream last night - dreamt of yusof coming to melbourne just to give me PT and then he got so bored he decided to teach..dancing. and den another dream of an old fren who came back and i punched him. and the other night i also had a dream of a senior i havent caught up with in a long time. kinda reminded me of how i always dream of random people in my life when i'm back here; but not when i'm at home in sg.

weird.

so moomba last night was a last minute decision - we didn't go on any rides but i must say its pretty cute; abit like pasar malam in singapore except less food and more rides. then a long chat made me miss aims so i called her while walking home.

61 more days, babe. we'll figure our way out from there. and ur right, some things do change. but others, no matter wad, will always stay the same.

p.s. - where IS mas selamat? Ginny sed he's at Waffles Wu's clinic finishing up his plastic surgery.

-lu

.happy.

2008-03-05T23:59:00.001-08:00

i think its either coz its the end of my school week, or tt school's turning out to be quite fun afterall; or maybe its just coz its another day lesser to seeing you that's making the endorphine fly. whatever it is, i do miss you.

was just thinking - if people seek the life they always want and they finally get it, then what happens? do we simply put down everything and learn how to appreciate what we have been striving for / achieved? if not, then why not the simple life in the first place.

hungers. time for dinner.

-lu

.22.

2008-02-24T22:41:00.000-08:00

i'm glad u liked the surprise;

and i'm glad u smiled,

but most of all,

i'm glad i got to be the guy celebrating it with you.

p.s. sorry the 4 of us had to lie to you. heh.

-lu

2008-02-22T09:41:00.000-08:00

Girl: "You know how sometimes i just hug you randomly and hold on just a bit longer...(it's) cuz i miss you already. i can feel it."

today's picture really reminded me of 3 things that will never change:

#1. you'll always ALWAYS cut off my hair in pictures
#2. we'll always be retarded. together.
#3. that everyday with u is like a first date.

that hand over my shoulder, that look on both our faces that say 'i don't wanna take this picture but only coz the camera's already out of the bag', and the glimmer in both our eyes..

aimee sin. i miss you tonnes already too. but i'm not gona stop, coz i don't want to.

-lu

.dos.

2008-02-18T09:11:00.000-08:00

two.

its not long, but its been absolutely lovely.

and i wouldn't want it to be with anyone else.

p.s. - and u better like the present!

-lu

.who moved my cheese.

2008-02-10T22:47:00.001-08:00

so i got this letter on Saturday out of the blue (i never get mail in singapore). i quote:

"hello darling! (...) I'm sending you this letter by post because last week you said you don't get mail in s'pore and gave that face. So SURPRISE!"

i might possibly have the most retarded gf in the world; but she's oh so sweet. =)

-lu

2008-02-06T06:40:00.000-08:00

..this b'day is turning out to be quite cool afterall. heh.

the sweetest present. from you. =)

-lu

2008-02-01T09:26:00.000-08:00

i just remembered the flower is still in the cooler.
the flower i bought for you...last saturday.

just like the cake that night,
not a mention on LJ.

sometimes i think my gifts are exactly that,
just. gifts.

but hey, its the weekends.

-lu

2008-01-31T01:29:00.000-08:00

scarily parallel

but then again, its probably just me.

-lu

2008-01-27T19:21:00.000-08:00

honesty really is a hard virtue to uphold sometimes. that's why virtuous people are far and few. damn the culprit. u know who you are. u can escape now, but u'll get your karma soon enough. and i'll be the one leading the pack in cursing u. look into your heart and u'll see that even though u think u've gained by taking away someone else's belongings, a part of you has actually died inside.

and i hope someone takes away your A level grades just like you took what was precious to me.

damn you.

-lu

2008-01-25T09:45:00.000-08:00

i'd give alot just to be the person ur dreaming of

-lu

.feliz aniversario de un mes.

2008-01-18T05:54:00.000-08:00

当你的眼睛眯着笑

当你喝可乐当你吵

我想对你好

你从来不知道

想你想你

也能成为嗜好

..this may have been your song for me, but i think the chorus describes what i want to tell you sometimes.

a million people;

but yet only two.

-lu

.jealous of my gf's internet connection.

2008-01-16T20:25:00.000-08:00

Seletar Reservoir 140108. you & me.

-lu

2008-01-12T02:13:00.000-08:00

..heard this song on the radio while driving home from gym this afternoon..made me think of you. it really is me with you, the comfy yet nervous, tingly feeling.

i think we're onto something good here =)

-lu

.these aren't lyrics.

2008-01-07T07:27:00.000-08:00

..turn around and look at me,

coz i really want you to know that its not me being afraid,

but rather the sweetness of it all is so intoxicating

that i don't want to lose it.

turn around, and take a look at me,

coz i don't want to lose you.

-lu

2008-01-05T17:31:00.000-08:00

..ok so i didn't do a 'welcome 2008!' post coz i thought that was kinda overdone; so i left it till now when everybody's more or less accepted that its 2008 and start referring to 2007 as 'last year' instead of 'this year' and also written '../../08' instead of '07' on their worksheets. let's see..2007 was actually quite a tumultous year. you know, the usual cliches like friendships lost and forged, failures experiences and success tasted...blah blah. but i'm not gona analyze my year, particularly coz its gone and everything that had to (or should) be learned have most probably been done. i just know that 2008 feels like a really good year (gosh i hope i didn't jinx it with that). so, without further ado, here's a toast to the 6-day-old year (ok that sounds paradox-y). Here's to many many wishes fulfilled and much happiness for everyone.

Cheers! =)

-lu

2008-01-05T08:56:00.000-08:00

Two hearts are beating together,

I'm in love, I'm in love

Is this forever and ever;

I'm in love, I'm in love

-lu

.click.

2007-12-30T08:23:00.000-08:00

we stop pedestrains in their tracks and hold bystanders up while we pose for pictures.

...and the fact that I feel so comfortable walking beside you makes it all the more precious.

-lu

.nose.

2007-12-27T09:10:00.000-08:00

...okay so i can't do cheesy to save my own life. but i really hope you smile when u see this

if you only knew how much i like u,

u'd realized tt head over feet may have been your song,

but mine doesn't have to have one.

coz our song is not made up of keys and notes,

but kisses and holds.

-lu

2007-12-25T07:59:00.000-08:00

Woking Street

..some of the residents made a ladder and swing out of rope, plank and a strong tree branch.

-lu

.Christmas '07.

2007-12-24T02:10:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas, all!

-lu

.-muck-.

2007-12-23T10:08:00.000-08:00

...so today i had to go out for abit after church to do some chores for the mum. got home an hour later to find this.

i've got the laziest girlfriend in the world.

-lu

.heroes.

2007-12-22T07:05:00.000-08:00

..in the world of sin-lee..normal happenings are a rarity =)

-lu

2007-12-19T02:29:00.000-08:00

we break all cliches in life

-lu

.you+me.

2007-12-17T17:49:00.000-08:00

..so i dug through my email records looking for something embarrassing like this..=)

"...i really dont know what kinda friends we can be...because whenever we go out, even though i know we are friends and im over that JC period thing, i still feel you are someone important to me. i still think about you from time to time..but anyway, i know it's not your fault and there's nothing you can do. im just overly emotional. haha. puke. sorry for everything lionel. beep me if you wanna. no worries if u dun wanna. i can be quite scary sometimes..better run away while you can. but i hope not.

love always,
aims"

(November 30, 2005 10:01:46 PM)

i think this was the moment we both started to grow up,

and i stopped looking at you as that girl who had a huge crush

and i'm glad we had that quarrel;

whatever we both claim (like: its not my fault heh);

coz that was the point when i turned around

and saw you as the girl who took everything i had,

and everything i didn't

and crumpled them into a ball of love

and never once let it leave her side,

always in her pocket.

是妳在我身边,让我想作更好一點

-lu

2007-12-16T07:49:00.000-08:00

..you don't know it coz i don't say it out. but i miss u everytime we're apart. but i'm too proud to tell you, and i wish sometimes you could know how much i want to be right beside u when we're not together.

hush.

ok. dinner yesterday was REALLY good. expensive, but i like. =)

1 Rochester.

Aim's creation.

What a weird post.

-lu

2007-12-13T11:17:00.000-08:00

so yesterday was at Dempsey. Nice place with lovely decor, and drinks were good + they kept refilling the bowl of nonsense

and what is Wednesday night without Zouk? even though we only went there for like what..2 hours? i do like velvet. =)

lu. tea. aims.

the rest is still unwritten. =)

**disclaimer: these pictures were stolen. but i don't care. i'm weevil**

-lu

.so close.

2007-12-11T22:34:00.001-08:00

to you.

-lu

2007-12-09T19:05:00.000-08:00

first time or a billionth, it still is so gosh darn sweet.

-lu

.nose.

2007-12-08T02:50:00.000-08:00

do u think fairytales exist?

come closer. closer. =)

...lu is very in need to BREATHE. party party party party.

-lu

.wrong/nice.

2007-12-06T21:46:00.000-08:00

you either know, or you don't. =)

-lu

.laughter. joy. love. friends. ever.

2007-12-05T05:28:00.000-08:00

"H1 H1 H2A H3"

Happy enough. Stupid law subject always make my transcript records look so ugly. but hey, no complaints.

anyway, the past 2 days: an eclectic summary

oh oops. everything except becks. haha. gosh. i duno where i would be without the 5 of u..

anyway, time to start packing. gotta be ready by 5am to catch the sunrise with snobby.

oh, and the video to mark our accomplishments as street dancers. =)

heh. Farewell for now, Melbourne. Will see u after the new year.

-lu

.tribute.

2007-12-04T16:44:00.000-08:00

"some things that happen, only certain people know and that's all that needs to be known. Because all the good memories stay & will forever be carved...and like good wine, when opened years later, can only taste better."

...you know how sometimes you set your sights so firm on something that is going to happen that you just hope to blitz through everything in between? well even though i can't wait to step off that plane bound for home tomorrow, i'm sure as hell gona miss

the 10:05pm chicken dance in the streets with the 2 Js

the 1am karaoke

the private function with probably 3 of the loveliest people who have graced my life

the dinner and possum walks

the lying on the couch in the dark, legs on top of one another, talking about things that matter and don't with the snob (i mean it in an affectionate way)

the shoppingS (oh gosh how could i forget the shopping)

the brisk walking to and from safeway at 11.40pm just so that we could get fruits+drinks to accompany devil wears prada

the late night walks to everyone's houses and just talking and talking

the dancing, toasts, laughter, tears and screams from dinners and lunches at crazy times

...and that all happened in like less than a week. i don't know what i did to deserve all that love, but i know the memories have been etched. photos will serve to reinforce them, but the reminiscing will never stop.

time to go home. to say goodbye to 1st year of Uni and 2007 in Melbourne. but before that, time to pack, meet aileen, den ginny for lunch & the girls (AND harry!) for dinner. lu suddenly wishes 6th of December would slow down so he can take a breath.

but hey, Singapore's home. and it will never change. which explains why i'm excited. =)

and most of all, i'm coming home to you.

-lu

2007-12-03T15:28:00.000-08:00

“可以不要对我这么好吗? 我怕我会喜欢上你”

aiyoo so sweet...how to say no. i mean, yes. =(

-lu

.dec dec dec.

2007-12-02T16:48:00.000-08:00

so shoppingyesterday with the krunks was crazy. i said i wasn;t going to buy anything but a pair of shades, but instead i not only ended up with 2 pairs, i bought

2 t-shirts
1 bag
1 pair of flip-flops
wine glasses
1 pair of leather sandals (that i still insist i *heart* so much)

total damage: A$380. okay, time to go home and grovel to mummy when she sees the bill. hoo-ah.

and oh. mgah. lu is getting nervous.

Start of December is gna be a helluva crazy-monkey month 7th results come out party (hopefully happily) 8th party 9th watch 400m free then hopefully party (happily again) and 10th is catch up time with friends friends friends

And Europe is beckoning too. =)

oh gosh. Please, Santa. I've been a (relatively) good boy this year and i just want the presents i've wished for.

-lu

2007-11-30T03:27:00.000-08:00

Its only been 24 hours. but its starting to feel much better.

Today I nearly broke down in tears. Not coz of you. But coz of all that love from everyone.

Thank you. thank you so much, guys. I guess yesterday i needed so much from all of you that I didn't even think about what you all had to do. But you all came. just for me. Thank you so much.

And yes. I'm looking forward to Private Function I on Sunday. Just us. =)

-lu

.xoop.

2007-11-27T15:31:00.001-08:00

Hey Beck/Bern/Rach/Elf/Aims/the people from Melb (you know who you all are)..thank you so much for being there the past few days.

"Yea, I may have lost somebody. But I found out I have really.good.friends."

I don't believe I cannot figure this out.

-lu

2007-11-24T18:25:00.000-08:00

"Look inside your heart. and learn to push that switch. that switch that refuses to stay where you want it to. that switch that gives you that feeling like you want to scream out loud and just do anything you can to hold it there. Find it within yourself to do it, and when you can; you've let go."

I don't want to tell you about it because i don't even know how to. its just hard to deal with the fact that your not going to be there everytime i pick up the phone to msg u, or everytime i feel like i just want to lie in bed and talk, or everytime i turn around and your there talking gibberish. its hard for me to say it, but i really do miss the times when we could do that knowing that nobody else's opinions would matter.

but as much as it sucks, you being happy means alot more to me than all those. so go. enjoy yourself. but come back to me when its all over, okay?

-lu

.no, i'm not in love.

2007-11-24T18:18:00.000-08:00

its funny how u realise that as much as one scoffs at others, you don't know how to deal with a certain situation when it actually hits u.

yea. i don't know how to deal with this. its warped. like there's something uneasy about the whole thing but i don't know what and i don't know how to deal with it.

maybe its coz i don't like sharing things that mean alot to me; or tt i don't like changes. or maybe its His way of telling me not to take people for granted. but either way its not easy. and i don't like dealing with emo stuff.

i guess e one thing i need to learn is to freaking let go. its really not that hard, lu. you just have to slowly open your hand.

i guess sometimes as much as i hate letting people get too close, i hate looking at the footprints they leave behind when their gone too.

Ah. Whatever. I don't know anything anymore.

-lu

2007-11-20T15:23:00.000-08:00

nope. after 21 years, i still won't beg for help.

and the fact that you couldn't see that makes it all the more disappointing. but i don't want to argue with you. if you think you're right, then you're right. I won't ask for your help again.

.doorstep.

2007-11-15T03:38:00.000-08:00

"ready on the left, ready on the right, locked and loaded"

So this is it. last one for the year. its so fast how the year just flies by like that, huh? and knowing that your at home waiting for me makes it so much sweeter. =)

"we'll spend evenings sitting next to each other;
and just talk about anything we want to.
and even though we both have millions of people in our lives,
i want to feel like i'm the only one who matters to you in that hour or two."

took it right out of my mouth, dear girl.

i'm coming home to you. =)

-lu

.retard.

2007-10-15T07:23:00.001-07:00

Well I guess we’re here again.

Same old street, same old place.

Maybe this once I’m meant to walk down alone; never having the chance to tell you how much it meant when you said it brought back everything. Or ask you what you meant when you said I should know why it was so hard for you.

Coz I don’t understand. But I don’t want to ask because it’ll just make me tired. Of questioning the ifs and the maybes. And I don’t want to regret doing anything.

I’ll walk down the path myself this time, princess. And I’ll smile for your happiness, and knowing that everytime I smell you and turn around,

That maybe this time it’ll be you.

2007-08-14T06:35:00.000-07:00

i miss having my sentences completed,
and having you all to laugh with me when i didn't make sense.
and i miss not having a care in the world;
except tt heart-rate set every wed evening.

coz i duno wad to do now,
and i duno why i feel like this.
but can i please have it all back,
coz i dun want anything else anymore.

i dun want to learn how to fly. anymore.

-lu

2007-05-21T05:54:00.000-07:00

thanks you've been fuel for thought

now i'm more lonely than before

but that's okay

i've just already made

another stupid love song.

..i just already made another stupid love song. This blog is so not me, but so me at the same time. I don't have an alter-ego, and neither is lionellee.blogspot a facade. its just..sometimes i don't want everyone to know how i feel about stuff, i guess.

-lu

2007-05-19T03:30:00.000-07:00

i don't know why its like this.
but its really tiring sometimes.

i've always wanted to have like my emo side removed. since young.
like as if its an organ i could just cut away.
then maybe i'd stop thinking, or wishing, or pitying, and thinking somemore.

what the hell.

i don't want to talk about it.

.numero uno.

2007-03-31T06:23:00.000-07:00

oOoh this is my first post here. Think i'll end up using it for my media stuff later this year..for now i'll just post stuff i wanna keep secret lah. stay tuned!

p.s. - if ur reading this, how did you find it?! haha. i told no one.

-lu